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When you just want to bash your head in wall, tear out your heart, and move deep into the forrest: 1. Turn on the music. At this point, it doesn't even matter what it is, just drown out the silence and the thoughts that come with it. 2. Brush your hair or paint your nails. The repeated motion and feeling is comforting. 3. Instead of playing sad,sappy, or angry songs on your guitar, play the ones that are familiar. You'll get more out of it. 4. Don't even try to reason with your feelings, because even if you decide that you are a better person without them, it still won't make it better. 5. Clean. Moving around and seeing the results of y

always i want to run so fast i feel my feet lift off the ground wings sprout from my back and i am in the air that is the stuff my dreams are made of both in sleep and awake but not tonight no tonight i want to float here with you suspend this moment in time eyes closed hair afloat around my head i know we look like water angels just you and I

out of my element weary and nervous not myself, not in control wanting to run not knowing if i can manage to stand walked the tightrope and made it across scared just looking back and seeing where i could have fallen wishing i had never attempted the feat in the first place nothing happened. i'm fine. then why can't i look myself in the eyes? drying off avoiding my own face knowing the sadness i will see there. once again i have lost innocence i did not know i even possessed

i wish i knew my grandfather better he's the only grandfather i've ever had and i know one day he won't be there anymore did you know he was alive during WWII? I didn't 'till last year. i wish i still had the same love for my grandmother that i had when i was 8 when i associated her name with love and not hurt i know one day i'll attend her funeral and it bothers me to think that maybe i won't be as sad as i should when i was younger i used to think that our 'close family friends' were actually part of my family we were all so close that it confused me that we didn't have the same last name it confused me more when i found out

I miss brown paper bags And you writing my name pretty on the outside. Dancing in the car Falling asleep to the music. Some days I love you Other days I still do Some days I want to run away Other days I'd settle for driving. I miss the days when having a crush faded away Yesterday I liked you I looked at pictures of you today And felt my heart stir Then grow. Now it is longing for something it will never have. One day I will take flight off of a swing I will fly above the trees To a far away place Why do you think I love to swing? I'm really just waiting.

I'm havin trouble breathing and baby its all because of you Lookin at you sleepin Wishin i could be there too